It is so hard to be motivated especially when no one believes in you.
Sometimes when it’s almost 1 am you could think of the most ugly thoughts like that of feeling ugly or not special or unappreciated and it sucks because you can’t tell anyone mainly because they’re already sleeping or you’re not the type of person who shares these kind of thoughts. So what you did was post this in a world of strangers, a world of abstract, a world where you can scream and cry and shout and no one will ever know your name and it’s just sad. It’s sad to be that person writing right now.
I always doubt myself.
I’m never confident with all my skills, talents (If ever I have any), abilities - everything. Because I know, no matter how hard I try, there will always be someone who is better than me. Someone who can do so much better. Someone who can be greater.
I know I’m worthless. Please don’t brush it straight to my face.
"I’m a very private person. Sometimes, I fear that nobody really knows me at all. Sometimes, I don’t even know me either."
-(via goghst)
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(via schneewittchenxx)
I want to be someone’s favorite person to talk to.
“To that someone who might fall in love with me someday. First, I just can’t believe that you actually did. I just don’t get it. Above all people, me? Oh, that’s very flattering. Thank you. I know I am hard to deal with; I am cranky; I change my moods easily; I am impatient as hell; I cracked corny jokes but you still chose to love me. That’s why it’s a mystery to me. I just can’t promise you anything for promises are cliche. I am selfish, egoistic and self-centered guy but I just want you to know that I am deeply honored and grateful for the love and kindness you’ve given to me. I ain’t certain if I deserve those treatments but thanks though. If it happens that I love you as well, that’s awesome! We can be the lovers of the generation since we will do those things we love to do for happiness to bloom and for this love to grow. We will fall in love to one another harder than anyone else. But in case, I didn’t love you the way you do for my heart belongs to someone else, I regret to say sorry. I just can’t accept the love you’re extending to me. Saying this to you as early as now can lessen the damage. It’s hard I know. It may even create a huge gap and uneasiness between the two of us but some things just didn’t work out the way we went them to be. It’s hard at first but surely, you can move on and find someone a whole lot damn better than me. I’d rather hurt you with the truth than make you believe with false hopes. Thank you for the love but the letter I just don’t fit with the letter U because they both belong into someone else’s good arms.”—
Sometimes I just feel so lonely. I guess there’s really no one to blame for it but myself. I wish I was better at trusting people and opening up to them. I keep my guard up so high it’s ridiculous to expect anyone to try hard enough to push their way in. I want to change, I just don’t know how.
“1. Stop assuming about other peoples’ feelings for you even they’re sending signals. Let them tell you directly. Being broken because of wrong assumption is devastating.2. Do not expect. Let things happen. The moment you expect things will go smoothly according to plan, they didn’t. And all you’ll have is a heavy heart. Just remember best things happen when you least expect them.3. When words are superfluous and pains are too much to contain, cry. There’s nothing wrong in crying whether you’re a boy or a girl. Tears are made to roll down your cheeks. And to make you feel better.4. Remember this: Do not depend your happiness to things or to a single person in this world. Learn how to have happiness on your own. So the moment they’re gone, you will not be left truly destructed. And mind you, true happiness comes from within.5. Tell people how you truly feel. If you’re annoyed, tell them— in the nicest way. If you miss them, express it to them. It feels good to let your feelings out. You don’t have all the time on earth so don’t leave them wondering how much they mean to you.6. Eat healthy foods. Be green. Health is wealth. I know how good those snacks taste but your body suffers a lot from those guilty pleasures. Your body is your temple— you better take care of it. I bet, you don’t want to grow old carrying those unwanted diseases.7. Save the earth for the next generation. Remember that sooner or later, you will be gone. Allow others to experience the beauty you’ve experienced here when you’re still breathing. Plant trees. Recycle papers and other stuff. Earth is worth saving.8. Keep in mind that stars don’t shine without darkness and storms passed. You are strong. You are marvelous. You can survive the relentless battles of life.9. Do remarkable and memorable things to increase your worth and value as a person. I bet you don’t want to stay as is. You desire to grow as a being. Start taking initiatives. It will be paid off in the end.10. Value your family, your friends and your partner because they’re the people who nurtured you from the very beginning. They’re the who didn’t leave you no matter what.”
She’s afraid to be attached because the first person who promised her that he wouldn’t leave, left her.
Teach me how to gracefully let go of things not meant for me.